the simplicity concept

Yea the simplicity concept. "Simplicity is best". From all the blogger templates that I've browsed from various websites, I chose this. Why? Because it's plain, it's simple, and I don't have to worry about backgrounds. So for the meantime, I'll be sticking to this super plain layout until I figure out what fits my mood or my life best..or it would either be best if I can figure out how to create my own blog layout..that would be much better since I have a lot of time on trying to figure it out and besides, I've got a lot of concepts that were inspired mostly by quotes and lyrics songs..all I need now is a straight mind. Bah! I'm repeating myself over and over again. Anyhoo, enjoy the sooo simple and plain layout for the meantime. =)

I have a question to ask..

How do you cope with first time failures?

As you can see, it has something to do with ME failing for the first time..*sigh* I just have to look at the bright side and try to think positive..there's a saying that "sometimes you have to fail to succeed"..unfortunately, a sad but true one..*sigh* I'm not in the mood to be talking about it on public..and I won't..cuz I can't think straight at the moment just thinking of it..='(

So..comments, answers, opinions to my question would be very much appreciated..

Happy Halloween to Everyone!..and Happy Bday to Paul!!

Happy Halloween guys..I didn't feel it though except for the freakin' horror movies that they show on cable..really not my thing..really lolz..oh! and Happy Birthday to my dear friend Paul Vincent F. Ora (haha I still know your full name..cool ehe)..so trick or treat huh..err..ok..i still can't think straight so..am out!

esp. to N-407

Sobrang mamimiss ku kayong lahat..esp. you guys N-407 ='( I had the best & not so best memories of my whole college life with you guys that can't be put down to words..I guess there's a purpose for everything huh? Hay..wooh! Ayoko ng magdrama kaya ingats na lang kayo palagi..God bless & congrats in advance..miss & luvu all! I'll be seeing you guys around..

geez..they JUST never stop, do they..

Hay..rumors..they never stop..anyways, I don't feel or am not in the mood to blog about it so here are just some quotes about rumors that I agree on:

"I love it when people judge me negatively..esp. when they're wrong." [=))]

"When people start talking behind your back, nevermind them..because it proves that they are obsessed to make a story about you! Just remember - they are the reason why you should consider yourself FAMOUS."

"Why would I keep on oblitering myself to those who hate me if I could make their lives miserable just by existing?" [haha sooo bad =))]

"Most of what's being said about you by other people doesn't really say about who you are - it says more about who they are..UNCONSCIOUSLY.."

"It's hard to trust people these days." [I strongly agree with this..]


And a piece of advice from my besty from one of our idol Allen Iverson's tattoo - "HOLD MY OWN", "STRENGTH", and "ONLY THE STRONG SURVIVE".

There's no need for me to elaborate each saying/quote since all are actually very self-explanatory..

To all you guys (you know who you are)..trying to bring me down or destroy my reputation..I'm not afraid..I don't care.. Besides, in the end it's all you guys' loss and I'll still be standing..I will be..

Happy Mother's Day..!

Just so you all would know - it's Mother's Day today! May 13th. So if ever you guys didn't know that today is that day for Mothers all over the world, then it's not too late to greet them! It's all over the TV, so you can’t miss it!

Before this special day will end, I would like to say Happy Mother's Day to my beloved Mother! I can't put down to words on how grateful and thankful I am to have a mother like her. This isn't much but I would like to just thank you Mom for everything and I Love You Mom! Hope that's enough to make You smile :) ..See you and sister soon! 4 days and counting! I can't wait!


* my beloved MOM ^-^

..HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY once again to y'all's Mothers out there! God bless! <3

a phrase to ponder on..

I received a text from a friend a few minutes ago.

This is a phrase from my friend's quote:
"..someone who could say goodbye but still be there for you.."

Mind boggling? A simple statement is what I came up with. I'd say it depends on who the person is and how strong your relationship is with that person. Definitely.

I can relate to this. This made me realize, either friendship or love, there are only two options in saying goodbye. Some moments happy, some sad. Some stay, while some go far away..and don't come back..

Lakers won..'with effort'!

(April 27, 2007) NBA Playoffs 2007: Game 3 - Los Angeles Lakers vs. Phoenix Suns

It was a close game but the Lakers won! Kobe summed up Game 3's 95-89 win over Phoenix perfectly, saying the team stepped up and finally gave a complete effort, speeding up the heat. Bryant said, "It was effort. You can go over execution and X's and O's all you want. What you have to have is effort."

The Lakers won by Kobe's last 6pts., total of 45pts. (the highest points of the game). Now that's what I'm talking about! And just recently, his jersey no longer has the #8 attached to it, it's #24..since he said that he wanted a new number for the second half of his career, and that 24 was his first H.S.number (..and the story goes on). Although his jersey number has been changed, he's still one of my (first - all time) favorite NBA player..Go Kobe! \m/

Alanis Morissette's "My Humps" Parody: Humiliation or Fun?

Alanis Morissette..well, she made her own version of the popular song, "My Humps" of the Black Eyed Peas. They aired this in E!News and that is where I first saw the video. What do you think - did she do this just to humiliate herself or was she just doing this to make fun of Fergie and the rest of the BEP? For one thing I know, this made me laugh all through out the video haha..check it out! LYAO lolz..

hopefully..1 more year to go!!

Long time no post! It's been a month! What's been happening?! I guess I was just too lazy to post something because of all of the requirements needed to pass in due time..Pretty much the usual busy mode..And thesis is one of them..yes, the defense! We had our defense last week..I actually thought it was gonna be rejected because of the panelists' silent mode for a few seconds of the final verdict..BUT congratulations to our group for passing the thesis proposal! Congrats to the whole section (N-308) for passing and doing a great job as well! On the other hand, another school year's over and final exam just ended yesterday and I'd say, the exam was pretty tough! I feel like either the exam was really difficult or I didn't review enough..ok, enough with being pessimistic! Better to be optimistic and tell myself that I'll pass no matter what..I know we all will! Anyways, me and some of my friends went swimming here at our estate pool after the exam to relieve some stress and just chill out. It made me not think about school for once again, since we were having so much fun swimming and playing badminton even if we were only 4..it made me think about my aching body though lol..Today starts 1 week of our summer break then off to being busy again..not to mention Mariveles! I'm excited but at the same time nervous..it's the experience that counts right? If only we got no summer classes, I'll be having my vacation back in AUH..the place I miss so damn much! I miss the place and the people I know there, too! :') Aside from that, I've been exercising more and TRYING to eat right since last year's sembreak..really tough to keep it stable when I don't manage the cooking lol..I will..soon! Btw, I have some pics uploaded in my multiply from my last few hospital rotations..not much..but at least..hay..Mariveles here we come lol! Ciao!

moments in our lives..

I was watching the tv show: One Tree Hill awhile ago. When Lucas' words at the end of the episode made me ponder on such moments in our lives - from the choices we make..being tested..

Life..trying to figure out what lies ahead beyond existence, but we never know what really does.


"There are moments in our lives when we find ourselves at a crossroads. Afraid. Confused. Without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days.

Of course, when faced with the unknown, most of us would rather turn around and go back.

But once in awhile people push on to something better - something found just beyond the pain of going on it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in. Or to give someone a second chance.

Something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream.

Because it's only when you're tested that you discover who you truly are. And it's only when you're tested that you discover who you can be.

The person you want to be does exist, somewhere on the other side of hard work, faith and belief, and beyond heartache and fear of what lies ahead."

realization..

Everyday is a brand new day.

A new day of realization.

Realization of the day that one has made to.

Realization of more new problems to be solved.

Yet realizing more things to be happy with..

More goals and targets to work for..

And realizing many more things to thank God for.. :)

..in Manila.

We didn't have any classes/duty today since PGMA was going to attend our school to commemorate the new president of our university. So our group in research spent the time researching in 4 colleges (UP, UST, CEU, SBC) at Manila..just for one day..actually..hours! Our group met up at 5:30-6am but unfortunately someone still came late (Filipino time huh lol)..anyways, we left by 6:30am and took the NLEX for easier and faster transport. From Pampanga to Manila it would usually take 3-4 hours including traffic. But using the NLEX, it only took us 1 and a half hour to reach Manila! What an improvement! We arrived at Manila by 8am and went straight to our first 2 destinations: UST & UP. Then by lunchtime, we went to to the last 2 schools left on our list: CEU & SBC. All we did was research for more sources for our thesis. One thing that also made me happy today - I saw 2 of my H.S.Classmates, Rami & Tin, a while ago, they made time for at least a few minutes since I haven't seen them for like 2 years now. I missed them so much! I can't believe I missed them..and the others! We were talking like back in the days when we were back in AUH! So anyways, they promised me a tour next time I visit Manila cuz I had to go back to Pamp.,and I have people with me..a dozen lol! Sad to say I didn't take a pic of us. Back to researching, we finished by 4:30pm. Since we had school the next day, we didn't have to chance to roam around at least..we went straight back to Pampanga after finishing our task for the day. We arrived here in Pampanga by 6pm..from there, everyone parted ways and went home. Tiring but somewhat fun hehe

This is just in my POV: I would say I never liked to live there in Manila even if the colleges are all high standard. If only THEY can do something to make our country better! THEY keep on repeating the same goal every year..geez! Anyways, my parents were right..it's not a good environment for me and my siblings to be in since we were born and raised in a very well environment. Or maybe it just depends..But this is the way I see it!

Even if majority of my friends are far from me..I know that we'll be seeing each other even if it takes a long time..time will come!

To Rami & Tin: Next time I go to Manila, I'll expect the tour you guys promised! :') miss u guys so much!

Sorry for the wrong grammar! I just wanted to post about this fun & unforgettable experience (I didn't mention all..don't have to) that I had today. I'm sleepy and tired right now from the adventure today haha..*yawns* I'm off to bed! Ciao!

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We usually keep our problems and never want the world to know. Though we try to be stronger..we are weak inside..

rumors..

Let's face it..it makes anyone angry, at the same time hurt inside when people spread rumors especially when you are the talk of it and it isn't true. It's unavoidable. This is by far the most common social weapon. Although some types of gossip may help a persons reputation, the overwhelming majority of the "shock talk" people indulge in is harmful and mean spirited. To add to the sinister nature of this tactic, it is most often done behind the target's back. The scenario is familiar to all of us - Person A spreads a rumor about Person B to everyone who may be interested and by the time it gets back to Person B, the damage is done. Person B then goes to confront Person A who plays innocent or apologizes half-heartedly. But the damage is already done! True or not some of the people who have heard the rumor will believe it, others will wonder what to believe, and those who know it isn't true will sit back and hope it all goes away quickly. It's better to believe what is coming from the person being rumored about than believing in lies being spreadt by people who just claims attention..the thing about rumors is that they are often difficult to prove or disprove. For this reason, once a rumor is set loose, it almost always follows it's target in one way or another. Very true..Rumors are often used as revenge or for blackmail. And now I wonder..what have I done to make them talk about me that way? I can't think of anything. I never did anything to anyone that would hurt them..but who knows right? Maybe they think that..but I don't..

Browsing in the internet, I found some tips on how to handle rumors..here are some of them:
* Remember that no matter what you say or do SOME people are going to believe the rumors. Your goal is to mitigate damages since it is next to impossible to make everyone believe your side of the story.
* Don't confront the person who spread the gossip about you in a public place or with an angry tone in your voice. Causing a scene or going on the offensive will only make them feel they are justified in spreading venom. It is best to avoid this person all together and to say nothing to them. But if you do have to say something, wait until you are calm and the initial shock has passed.
* Rather than freaking out and running around trying to set the record straight, play it cool! When it gets back to you laugh lightly and say something like, "Is THAT what's going around about me? I wonder why somebody would go to so much trouble to spread a lie?" This does two things; it shows others that you have nothing to hide because you are not acting defensively, and it puts the burden of reliability back on the gossip spreader by making others wonder if there is a hidden agenda.
* Spread the gossip yourself, "Have you heard what so-and-so is saying about me? What a joke!" and do it with a smile. Always sound calm and confused, never bitter and resentful.
* If anyone asks if the rumor is true say, "No of course not, but does it really matter what I say? I just wish I knew why so-and-so started this one in the first place." If it is true, omit the "No" and just say, "Does it really matter what I say? I just wish I knew why so-and-so spread this around in the first place!".
* Calm is the key! Always be calm, even baffled, when the rumor is mentioned. If you freak out in protest it looks like you have something to hide. Even if you do have something to hide, playing it cool is always best.
* Don't retaliate with your own gossip. You are better than that!

:)

I would usually play this song, "When I Go Down" by Relient K (one of my favorite songs), when I am reminded of such problems in my life or if I have problems that brings me down..this song would make me smile 'cuz I know, even if my family or close friends aren't here to comfort me in times like these, I'd still know that SOMEONE would never leave me alone..

<- press play to listen to song.

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
The very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think if only I had fought them

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale, I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I hardly make a noise
And from my lips, the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you

And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say that I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I lift my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
’Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To life me up again

JBLMRH - Surgery..onto the next!

This was a start of a new year when classes resumed from Christmas Break! Anyways, 2 days ago was our last duty at JBLMRH in San Fernando for this sem. Last sem we were assigned to the Medicine Ward, but this time..Surgery Ward. So, Surgery Ward..non-stop vital signs taking, change dressing, administering of meds as ordered. This is the only ward we have this sem and all are special areas. Cool! ^-^ Duty is not really that toxic..it can be toxic if you think it would be..I guess what makes it toxic are some selected factors - one of them to be the patient..because of the drugs they have been prescribed to (ex. the more the drugs, the more toxic..right?)..and that's just 1 patient I'm pertaining to. But I never had a so-called 'toxic' patient yet :S I know..not really toxic now. We are still in training to be efficient and professional in our profession of choice. The instructors would usually grade us with the 3 elements involved I guess Knowledge, Skills, and Attitude. But I still wonder if some CIs are good enough to impart their KS to us willing to learn. And the grades they give us..was it merely a guess?! Now would I compare..forget it! There's no use! If that's the way they want it, then that's it. What more if we were in the real world. We wouldn't be graded by instructors but be evaluated by officials superior than us in profession in the near future, right? Now that's somewhat scary to think that no one's perfect and who knows what's gonna happen next..*sigh* With those thoughts to ponder on still far away, I'd stick to what I have seen/experienced previously and recently. I've learned a lot from this rotation..from every rotation I mean. Thanks to the CIs..and for taking good care of us hehe

Another rotation has yet ended. We'll be starting our duty at AMC, here in A.C. this coming Monday..our group being assigned to the OR/DR. Oh and we are starting our Thesis Proposal..Here we go! :)

the sore throat :(

I woke up today in the morning, feeling something wrong. And what would you know..I have a sore throat! :( Maybe because of the on-off climate here. One minute it's cold, the other minute it's hot. .and just a while ago it showered rain for less than 5mins. if I may estimate. *sigh* As mild as a sore throat is, it pretty much made my day miserable since I had the urgency to cough every time my throat feels something irritating, inflicting my throat with pain, which, is manageable in some way..and unfortunately, or should I say luckily, today was a school day so I only had less time to rest..what more if I landed with the sore throat on a duty day. More work, less time. Your whole being can decrease with one problem. My friends would know something's wrong with me when I start to become quiet. Either it be any problem. What I did today was just less talk. I obviously can't talk much cuz I don't wanna lose my voice just because of a sore throat! It would make me ponder on the role of nurses. Even if you are sick, you still need to work just to make others get better soon. But when it comes to yourself, you need the motivation to figure a plan B. Hopefully, I need to get well soon because by Monday starts duty. And I don't wanna do sign language j/k It's a good thing I have 2 days off before a new week starts. I have no idea why I posted this lol. Ok! I am so not in the mood right now *cough* :( I'm off!

It's 2007!

Ah yes..it's 2007! It's been one heck of a year that 2006! And so begins a new year! A fresh start on everything again! A new chapter added to our lives! And I've got God to thank for everything that's happened and will happen in the future..who knows :) Every year, people would usually make their new year's resolution. This year, I didn't make one 'cuz I still have some resolutions back then w/c haven't been resolved yet. I'll TRY to resolve those first.. :s (just like what I posted from my previous post - read the survey :) ) Christmas break ends today and schools gonna be resuming tomorrow..gonna be pretty much busy again with school..it never ends haha

Anyways, I've uploaded 2 albums in my multiply. The 1st one's after Christmas, and the 2nd one's on New Year's Eve :) I'll try to update my blog once in awhile since school's gonna resume tomorrow. God bless everyone!